#84 Rizq

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When I look back to my earliest age as I remember, I would say my timeline life is such a bless actually. Rezeki sentiasa datang mencurah curah like a pouring rain. Dari zaman tadika sampai the moment I'm writing this, rasa macam boleh kira berapa kali aje I'm feeling super down and hopeless.

I'm good with studies dari zaman tadika sampai SPM. Bukan lah sampai tahap outstanding teruk. Tapi quite good lah untuk survive for my own future choices. Got 5As in UPSR and got admitted on my own choice of school. Got 9As (pejam mata dekat bahasa arab yang dapat C herherher) in SPM and got to further my studies on my first choice of UPU list. Cuma zaman PMR tu sekejap lah rasa macam kena thunder jap sebab dapat 5A aje. But overall, I'm super blessed!

After masuk uni, baru dapat rasa macam,

"WHY AM I LIKE THIS? WHY AM I NOT GOOD LIKE OTHERS?"

Lagi lagi bila time tu kita start compare result kita dengan result member yang we used to study together. Bila kita start to compare ourself dengan few others yang super bijok markah kalau exam bukan biasa biasa aje semua.  Bila kita start rasa kita loser for a moment. 

Tapi every hopeless thought will quickly faded away sebab satu benda yang selalu aku pegang evertime dapat result yang shehshejewp or feeling down, "Okay lah ni daripada kena repeat" or "Okay lah ni daripada tak dapat apa apa". We might feeling down with our not-so-good result but others might be suffer sebab kena repeat lagi the same subject or facing even huge problems than us. So, always be grateful even with the smallest thing like this okay!

Sebab bila kita percaya dengan rezeki Allah, kita perlu percaya bahawa every hopeless moments tu perlu for a while sebab rezeki kita mungkin di postponed kan untuk benda yang lebih bagus. 

Aku percaya segala rezeki yang tertangguh waktu zaman study has been paid bila aku dah dapat kerja. Dah lah dapat kerja dekat dream job. Terlampau dream job sampai tak pernah pun terfikir akan join the firm real soon. 

So I guess, my plan to write every week might not be achieved takut jugak jadi super busy with my own kind of unbalanced working life soon. So I'm gonna promise myself to write atleast once a month. Promise!

#83 A week of lesson

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Tajuk post kali ni bersempena dengan minggu terakhir kerja as PSH dekat office ibu.

Disebabkan minggu tu jugak week last untuk pendaftaran SPM ulangan, the office was super hectic with candidates yang nak daftar untuk repeat few papers and PARENTS yang bertungkus lumus datang instead of their children. 

Jadi, main lesson yang aku belajar sepanjang minggu ini adalah:

 Pasal parents, as always! Memang banyak kali dah aku duk cakap and tulis pasal parents.

Sepanjang minggu aku jaga kaunter semakan SPM haritu, macam macam jenis parents yang aku jumpa susah payah datang ke office nak daftarkan repeat paper anak diorang. Dari melayu sampai lah ke chinese and indian. Too many parents sahaja yang datang sampai satu tahap rasa nak nangis. Nak nangis sebab ada yang parents tolong datangkan sebab anak tengah belajar oversea pastu tetiba requirement dalam SPM tak berapa cukup, ada yang anak tengah kerja, etc.

Their effort buat aku tersentuh sangat. Macam biasa parents always want the best for us. Walaupun terpaksa bersusah payah ulang alik dari office nak kena pergi pos laju pastu nak kena datang balik hantar etc. Dengan cuaca kejap panas terik kejap hujan lebat. Faham tak sedih nak mati kena tengok setiap hari for a week!!!

Paling sedih bila terjumpa sorang pakcik ni, dia agak sound trouble jadi kalau nak bercakap dengan dia macam terpaksa kuatkan sikit suara. Risau betul orang lain ingat kitorang marah dia ke apa. Susah doh nak kuatkan suara. Pastu makin rasa sedih bila pakcik tu tak cukup ambil borang jadi dia kena pergi balik kaunter pendaftaran beratur ambil borang pastu kena pergi balik pejabat pos nak beli wang pos pastu baru boleh submit. Sumpah teringat pakcik tu rasa nak nangis. Even when I'm typing about him right now. Dah lah pakcik tu macam bongkok sikit maybe sebab faktor usia. Dah lah baju pun obvious lusuh plus dia simpan semua borang dgn segala documents dalam plastik kedai runcit aje. Cryyyyyy.

After segala urusan pakcik tu settle dia cakap, "Minta maaf ye pakcik dah tak berapa dengar sangat. Terima kasih ye semua". Aku mampu senyum cakap, "Takpe pakcik takpee". Dont be sorry at all pakcik!! Time tu aku dah menangis dalam hati. Why so sad!!!!

Dear pakcik's son. Please be good to your dad yang dah bertungkus lumus bersusah payah for your future.

Dear self, jangan lupa be good to ibu abah jugak for everything yang diorang dah korbankan untuk kebaikan diri aku sendiri.

#82 MR: Pitch Perfect 3

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Here goes the second movie!

Pitch Perfect 3

Kalau yang the first two sequel pasal burden bellas yg still dekat burden uni. Yang ketiga ni pasal diorang after dah grad dari uni. So masing masing pun ada kerja and prob sendiri.

But then they just missing their girls and agak tak berapa move on from the bellas etc. So dyorang join actually aku tak sure tu competition ke apa yang pasti macam DJ Khaled yang organise dekat military base. Maka muncul lah askar kacak seketul yang selalu jaga and bawak diorang tour lalalalalaaa. K tak lupa the one who work with DJ Khaled tu pun not bad luls.

Macam biasa dlm pitch perfect ada ripp off pastu nyanyi nyanyi etc. Then Bellas kena kidnap by ayah Fat Amy. Super lol sebab terlampau too good to be true. Tenang teruk perform Toxic walaupun dah nak meletup. Kalau aku mesti dah cuak teruk macam cacing kepanasan.

Okay malas nak cerita panjang plot dia. Straight to the point aje lah ye.

As the movie potrays, its time for us to move on from uni life and start improving ourselves.
Sedih sebab dengs pun lebih kurang aca-bitches macam the bellas. And soon we'll also have our own so called 'Baby Dengs'. Auuwwhhh mesti shomel. But it must be super hard to see each and everyone of us growing up and be part of somebody else family.

The movie really could make us appreciate our friends more. Pastu tetiba aku teringat ada satu cerita yang theme dia pun lebih kurang pasal kawan. Salah satu phrase dia yang aku suka.

"It's you who changed if you feel others have changed"

Faham tak? Kadang kita tak sedar kita rasa macam, Minah ni pehal macam ni dengan aku tetiba. Ni konfem dah berubah lah etc. Tapi sebenarnya kita kena look back to ourselves, what make them change because of our changes.

Malas nak bagi contoh direct sebab contoh tu nanti secara tak langsung akan buat aku pointing on someome yang obviously orang akan tahu. Dan aku pun tak nak amek port on their matter of life anymore. So, skip!

Once almost cry because of Flashlight, but now im really cying because of Freedom. Lagu dia tak sedih mana pun. Cuma the scene itself tu yang macam alahh sedihnyaa dan dalam masa yang sama sebab its finally over.

Sebab rasa macam membesar di zaman uni together with the bellas. The first pitch perfect in 2012 time tu zaman diorang freshie and kita baru kedek kedek masuk cfs at that time. Pastu in 2015 every character develop, so do us. And finally in December 2017, its over while we're getting ready to end our uni life too.

Date of watching: 180218.
Date of writing: 2030. 180218.

#81 MR: Pirates of The Carribean: Dead Man Tells No Tales

1057. 10032018.

So lately I keep writing on my Somnote review of movies that I watched. So, let start with the first movie that I had wrote before.

Pirates of The Carribean: Dead Man Tells No Tales.

How I wish I could immediately writing after watching this great movie! Macam biasa POTC tak pernah menghampakan but the awesome part for me always about the family values behind it.

We've given at first how Henry loves his father so much and struggle bersungguh to break the sea curse on his father. So in case of him, the absolute lesson that really we could learn is. Love your parents/family so much till you willingly do anything for them. Disebabkan I'm the type yang suka meletakkan diri sendiri in each of the watak in most of the movies i watched, the feelings got me so real to be a really good daughter and sister for my family.

Next in term of Carina. At first rasa macam biasa aje sebab okayyy she's trying to find the thing that her father left her behind. Tapi it got me feels so real bila dah dapat tahu Capt Barbossa is her father. Cmon time tu lagi aku dah boleh imagine what will come next. And yeah as i expected time diorang nak get on the black pearl back after the curse broke, while Capt Salazar keep chasing (lol climbing the apetu nama dia sebenarnya) for them, then Carina just relise that the Capt Barbossa is her father.

The MOST MEMORABLE SCENE yang could get me into tears is bila she ask him, "Who am I to you?"

And he proudly said, "TREASURE!'

Then I cry super hard until Capt Barbossa sacrifice himself for them. Ini semua salah Capt Salazar! Kalau dia tak keep kejar, then they may have hope to be happy again. TOGETHER!

Nahh but thats not what makes me sad. Apa yang paling menyedihkan is when i realise that even the bad 'pirates' dad pun want to give the best to their children. Walaupun aku tergelak Capt Barbossa merungut the ruby that he left for her on the Galileo Galilee's diary should be enough for her to used and grow up instead of cari the misteri behind it. But still, he's thinking of Carina's future while he keeps being the pirate on the sea.

But actually what makes me trully feel sad is, bila aku sedar yang aku ada the great parents yang tak leave us behind on anything despite of their own difficulties. We need love, they give us love. We need food, they give us everything etc.

Always feel blessed and love for whatever I've own today. I wouldn't asking for more instead of their good health and being together with us as long as they could.

Thank you Allah.

Date of watching: Kenot remember since Im watching it midnight but quite late. Maybe in the early of Feb. 
Date of writing: Right after finishing the movie before go straight to the bed.

#80 SomNote

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So recently time aku duk godek godek note apps yang ada dekat playstore, aku terjumpa satu apps yang sangat sesuai untuk orang yang malas bukak laptop tapi nak menulis macam aku. Its called, SomNote. 

Bagi aku, apa yang best pasal SomNote ni. First, tulisan untuk note dia tak besar sangat so macam tak annoying sangat sebab macam justtt niceee. Nak tengok pun tak menyampah sebab bila tulisan besar besar maksudnya kita kena scroll banyak kali. Aku terlampau tak suka kalau kena scroll banyak kali lol. Haa faham tak maksud aku tulisan besar kena scroll banyak kali? Luls.

Lepas tu kita boleh simpan note by folder which leads to what I'm gonna do today. Sejak aku separate kan note aku dalam apps ni, apa yang aku tulis dalam blog pun aku rasa nak kategorikan. Tak semua post lah sebab tak semua penting and significant. Mungkin start from hari ni punya post.

Pastu macam biasa lah bila benda dah ada kat tangan. Time feel nak menulis tu sampai, automatik boleh terus start menulis. Kadang kadang bila feel menulis sampai tapi aku yang duk postponed idea sebab malas bukak laptop or draft, sampai satu tahap aku buang balik semua idea yang dah ada tu. Lol.

Finally apa yang best, dia boleh simpan notes kita dekat cloud. Which also means semua yang aku dah tulis dekat notes, aku tinggal copy paste masuk blog je haa mudah kan hidup hoyeah! Dia bagi 1gb aje tapi cukup lah kan. Pas update blog, aku delete lah balik notes tu. 

K lah itu je. Lain lain features sila godek sendiri. Bye.

p/s: Cuak nak interview kerja omonaaa

#79 Achievement Unlock Level 1

140218. 1341.

Aku terlampau patut consider ini sebagai achievement unlock level 1 herherher. Last week aku first time memasak. First time ever start masak dari mula sampai habis. Dari perap ayam sampai hidang atas meja. Bangga kejap. 

Takde lah susah mana masak ni cuma aku freak out jugak lah time goreng ayam luls. Bab menggoreng memang lambat sikit lah nak maju. Dgn memondan takut minyak terpercik lah apa lah. Ini semua gara gara goreng kopok lekor time sekolah pastu kopok lekor asyik meletup dalam kuali. Takut gila teringat.

So here's the first recipe yang aku cuba. Aku memang ikut sejibik resepi dalam video cuma aku double kan portion. Pat tengok mudah kannnn.

Cuma yang luls nya, time perap ayam aku terletak lebih gula. TERLEBIH yang agak BERLEBIHAN sebenarnya. Jadi time goreng tu ayam aku terjadi hitam. Bukan sebab hangit tapi sebab gula tu dah jadi caramel. Sumpah tak pahit hangit (nak jugak menang lol). So kengkawan jangan terlebih gula hokey, kalau tak nanti presentation tak cantik cedih jap.

p/s: Masih seorang job hunter. Sakit jugak jadi job hunter. Nampak sangat hidup sekrang tak boleh memilih bila tengok job yang apply tu ada beratus lagi applicants. I'm so dead. Semoga ada rezeki. Doakan.

#78 2018

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Soooo I decided to start writing back. Yup. New year resolutions gituw. Dah nak habis satu bulan baru nak construct new year resolutions luls. Ye lah waktu awal tahun hari tu final exam pun tak habis lagi.

2018 Resolutions as per below;

1. Start writing back.
There are few contents yang aku dah ada idea untuk menulis. Tapi I'll post it maybe once a week or two weeks (depends bila tak busy). Sebab bila post banyak kali in a day, the very next time terus takde contents. So lepas tu mesti akan jadi terus tak nak menulis. So kali ni kita pakai concept, SLOWLY BUT SURELY :)

2. Start reading back.
Nak menulis tak kan takde content or input kan. So I really need to read. LIKE A LOT. Lagipun dulu aku pakai alasan tak sempat membaca sebab sibuk study. So sekarang macam tak berapa legit dah alasan tu lol. C'mon my bookworm-spirit. YOU CAN DO THIS!

3. Drawing lessons.
Lepas aku fikir fikir, aku rasa I really need to learn something new at least dalam setahun aku boleh pandai satu benda baru. Drawing lessons kat sini bukan lah setakat lukis orang lidi. Yang tu master sangat dah. Tapi more to proper drawing lessons. Tapi belajar pakai youtube sudahlah. Aku bukan nak masterkan diri aku in that area pun. Cuma atleast aku ada extra quality by drawing. Lagipun aku selalu anggap drawing tu macam hobi. So ayuhlah kita advancekan sikit skill tu.

4. Cari kerja
OF COURSE I HAVE TO!

5. Sambung ACCA
Sebab aku taknak bazir kan 2 paper yang dah pass tu. And aku pun dah siap survey and email ACCA provider dekat Ipoh. Tapi maybe bukan sambung sekarang lah kot. Maybe intake July nanti. Itcokey yang penting, alang alang menyeluk pekasam, biar sampai ke pangkal lengan. Gituw!

p/s: Whoever read this tolong sedekahkan Al-Fatihah untuk ayah Oyah yang baru kembali ke Rahmatullah dua hari lepas pls :')

p/s 2: Credit all pictures to google. You really do your job, buddy!