2022. 220522.
Hi. I'm back. Tak sangka the page can be quite lonely for 3 years 9 months lebih kurang. So many things happened through out the years. Too many to be honest.
Here's a recap for the past 3 years plus as below:
2nd April 2018, Alhamdulillah I got to be part of the Big 4 firm for almost 3 years (which is the BIG reasons why I'm unable to have much free time to write heheh). Since it is a branch firm, every month feels like a peak period. Endless work. Belum sempat job A siap, here comes job B. And the cycle continues. Can't blame the firm nor the job since culture as an auditor is well known macam tu. Kita sendiri dah pilih untuk be part of it, so kita sendiri kena hadap all of this walaupun it is actually one of my dream job 😢
Nothing much happening back then until it hits the end of 2019. The corona virus outbreak, COVID-19. All the lockdown etc led to two biggest turning point of my life right now.
From dream job to nighmare job
All the deadlines yang kena postponed due to adik beradik MCO and all the redundant workload make some of us can't bear it anymore. Cry at night dah jadi macam part of the jobscope. Most of my friends, one by one started to leave the firm. There's never been a day without a pray to receive any new job offer.
Segala offer yang available lah kita apply, punya nak cepat lari tu. Luckily one of my client then offered me a position in their company and here I am now, joining them since mid Jan 2021.
Tak pernah sangka letting go my dream job is an easiest task. The day I call my manager to tender, until my last day after work drove back home. I cry so hard. Harder than putus cinta.
But Alhamdulillah, sekarang rasa lebih bertenang. Workload not as heavy as before. Everything definitely feels like more worth. My free time. I got back all the time for k-drama binge watching heheh. My games. Of course there is a time at work yang buat kita marah. But nahhh all of this still bearable than before.
I've sign up one of the dating apps available
Yup. Exactly early 2020 I decided to install and sign up the apps. Sebab masa tu punya azam tahun 2020 nak cari boyfriend heheh. Kerja audit tak pernah ada masa untuk diri sendiri, apentah lagi masa untuk cari pasangan buat diri sendiri.
Get to know fews. But most of them is not serious at all.
Until the lockdown started, I got a match with someone from Selangor. I really thought that everything going to be so well. We've been friend for 3 months (online, lol) and tipu lah if I said there's no feeling at all. The feeling is there (Heheh my sayang, if you read this. I'm sorry). The moment it start to develop, I've been ghosting....like forever. Krik krik tutup cerita tak best.
That's the moment I feel like I'm so innocent in this field. How come I can trust someone online and even develop a feeling for him. Take it as a lessoned and decided to deactivate the account and delete the apps. Don't think so this platform can help me achieved what I want.
However, I always believe with everything that happened comes with reasons. The day before I delete the apps, I got another match with someone from Johor. Told him I'm going to delete the apps and we agreed to continue being friend through telegram by using our telegram ID instead.
This time, I'm trying to be super cautious. Tak nak pisang berbuah dua kali. I'm going older as the time past, tak nak asyik buang masa.
From days to months to years, from online friend to online and offline lover, and from telegram to whatsapp to meeting each other parents. Never I thought that I'm going to met my love of my life.
He's been there when I'm crying at night because of my job. He's been there the moment I decided to leave my dream job. He's been there when I started my new job. He's always been there with what ever decision that I'm going to make. Funniest thing is he's even here (video call since we are a LDR couple) the moment I write this post trying to remember what is my blog names lol 😂
To my sayang, I know your finally succeed to find my blog and read this.
Thank you for keeping up with me all this time. Let's grow old together and forever 💞
